in order to fully experience the depths of hell you have to first be lifted high up into heaven. you need to get a good long taste of bliss, get it deep enough in your system that it becomes part of you. maybe it even comes to life inside you. you need to get familiar with it… get used to it… learn to love it with all your heart and soul.
the trip to hell begins not with a fall but a gradual ascent. like a comfortable plane ride. first class seats, even. you’ve earned the trip to wherever it is you think you’re going, but hell comes when the plane doesn’t make it. you get your hopes way up, you make happy plans, you believe strongly enough in something that you plant your soul in it… and then the crash happens.
hell is the crash itself, and the suffering you endure after the crash. the crippling debilitating pain. everybody tells you to move on, and of course you want to move on, but you can’t move at all. your moving parts have been crushed. you’re clearly being punished but you have no idea what you did wrong.
http://fertilityfreak.wordpress.com/2011/12/19/hell/
This is probably the most accurate description of pregnancy loss (at least for me) that I have ever read. Beyond that specific type of loss even. Loss in general that hits close to home.
in order to fully experience the depths of hell you have to first be lifted high up into heaven. you need to get a good long taste of bliss, get it deep enough in your system that it becomes part of you. maybe it even comes to life inside you. you need to get familiar with it… get used to it… learn to love it with all your heart and soul.
the trip to hell begins not with a fall but a gradual ascent. like a comfortable plane ride. first class seats, even. you’ve earned the trip to wherever it is you think you’re going, but hell comes when the plane doesn’t make it. you get your hopes way up, you make happy plans, you believe strongly enough in something that you plant your soul in it… and then the crash happens.
hell is the crash itself, and the suffering you endure after the crash. the crippling debilitating pain. everybody tells you to move on, and of course you want to move on, but you can’t move at all. your moving parts have been crushed. you’re clearly being punished but you have no idea what you did wrong.
http://fertilityfreak.wordpress.com/2011/12/19/hell/
This is probably the most accurate description of pregnancy loss (at least for me) that I have ever read. Beyond that specific type of loss even. Loss in general that hits close to home.
